Thursday, March 20, 2008 | 10:42 PM
ah.
i owe you an apology,
i guess i was an ass.
wait, i know i was.
you're awesome,
but i guess i never treated you well enough.
no,
i wasn't taking advantage of you.
i guess i was torn apart.
i couldn't think straight,
i couldn't even stand on my own feet.
i was lost
i was depressed.
but yeah,
time didn't really heal my wounds,
it only made me get used to the pain,
now i'm back on my own feet,
i've learnt to ignore certain stuff,
and concentrate on what's in front of me,
what needs to be attended to,
it's unfortunate, really.
i'm really sorry you had to be on the receiving end
of my evil and screwed side.
the side i don't wish to be seen in.
a state of mind where
the only thing that matters,
is for me to get back.
to avenge what you took.
to avenge the pain you caused.
to get back for the damned pain you brought upon us all.
i swear,
one day i'll show you.
i'll prove to you,
i'm not as mentally weak as you think.
i'm not that little useless prick you take me for.
i'm not deserving of the bloody treatment you give.
i'm not as physically weak as you think.
one fine day, you shall see.
the side of me nobody else has.
the side that was only seen once.
the side that you said you never wanted to see anymore.
with every damned word you say,
i move closer to the edge,
i move within inches of the corner.
don't say i never warned you.
you damn well know what i'm capable of.
you've grown up with me,
you watched my every step.
watch my next few,
they may just be the last ones that you see,
Thursday, March 13, 2008 | 8:31 PM
oh,
i forgot.
part c's
this sat bring along all the damned items on the list for ake prep.
the ones i can remember:
1)booties
2)change of clothes
3)sunblock
4)1.5l bottle
5)wet gear
6)gloves(optional)
7)bailer(die die must bring)
8)snacks(optional)
remember, ma'am expects the 22 going to be top
;D
not so difficult is it?
| 8:07 PM
ahh.
blogging again.
i won't struggle on.
i've got my doubts in you.
but i can't effing forget you.
you're what's on my mind all the time.
you're the scene that keeps repeating itself.
no, i'm not saying its iritating.
i don't mind, really.
but it just makes things hard.
yeah,
you've got him,
till you forgot certain things that you told me.
i feel it all welling up inside.
hearts beat as one, but minds on different frequencies.
what's happening to me?
hours in the cold waiting for you,
now i realize it's wasted.
i wasted my life away,
but it's all for you.
there's nothing more important.
can someone wake me from this nightmare.
cos when i see your face,
my heart bursts into fire.
i'll wait forever.
but then again,
maybe you'd even forget of my existence.
i'm screaming
i'm dying
i'm hurting
am i waiting for something that'd never happen?
am i waiting for something that you'd never let happen?
am i waiting for something that's equivalent to the sky dropping?
some things are worth fighting for,
some feelings never die.
i just wanna know why.
giving it can't be wrong.
ahh,
let's stop my ranting.
i'm just not good enough for you am i?
just needed to get it off my chest.
shall stop here.
for now.
and til you realise,
i'd be here where you can find me.
